Psalm 37:5
"commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him, and He will help you."
My struggles with stress; fear; anxiety and depression are no secret. In fact, I have turned to blogging to help alleviate some of the debilitating symptoms that I have. I have been medicated for this 'illness' for more than half of my life, and although chemical intervention has helped somewhat I really don't think that it's all that it's cracked up to me. I follow a couple blogs written by vegan's who write that they have overcome many severe physical and mental issues by changing what they put into their bodies, and I have had some personal experience with the positive changes eating well can have on my body, and my mind. I am also aware the power of God's word on my spirit, and stability. I believe that like the vegan's diet that restores the physical well being of some lives, Jesus can restore my life inside and out.
This year has been an incredible challenge. Job troubles, back pain, money pain, family pain. The common denominator of the year 2012 is pain.
Pain; a four-lettered word I have allowed to deteriorate my 'spirit-wall.' Like acid rain eats away at a stone over the years; pain is like the rain the destroys my 'spirit-wall'. It seems only one small drop tears down all I have built with God, and then I'm left tearful and hurt.
I am resilient. Each time I get up and refocus and get back on the right path. I open my Bible, turn on Christian radio, and open up daily devotionals, but as soon as my 'spirit-wall' is built up about knee high - temptation; ego and circumstances hit me like the baseball bat or the acid rain.
We all have a story to tell. We all battle with temptation; ego, and succumb to the lies of this world.
There seems to be people though that are able to get up, and not fall down. They seem to be able to build their wall a little higher, and not fall quite so hard. Then there seems to be people like me - who don't build as fast or as sturdy; like building with toothpicks instead of heavy timber.
I know that with hard work; Bible study and trust in my Creator Jesus Christ I can live someday without chemical intervention. I can build my 'spirit-wall' higher than my knees to keep the falls fewer and further between.
